Saturday, October 6, 2012

Listen and OBEY

God is always speaking.
Sometimes it is in the quiet whispers of the wind, and other times it is very loud and clear.

Lately God has been talking really loud to me. Cool, right? I recognized it, and thought I was good. I mean it is great that I am hearing God's voice and I love it. But I was missing a really important part. That faith without works is DEAD. The book of James- which happens to be my favorite book at the moment- is based on this idea. I read James a lot and I can quote it to people in a situation. Yet, somehow when the situation fell upon myself to put the words in to action, I always back off.

The thing is that God does not let sometime go away if you do not want to do it. I wish a lot of the time. Nope. He just keeps bringing it up. He will not let you forget it. I can run all I want, but it always ends up in front of me. Basically, I fail. It would be easier if I would just obeyed.

It has been through messages that I hear in church. I feel as if the Pastor is speaking right to me. And the message just never leaves me head. God has no problem making things really clear when he wants something done. God also keeps having things be said that just hit me.

But the other day is one of my favorites. I usually go to church on Thursday, so that is where I was heading. A friend of mine and I were texting. I invited her to come to church with me. I just really wanted to talk with her and catch up with her. She ended up deciding to stay home. That was totally ok with me, and I said that we would just talk tomorrow. I knew that she needed to talk though. The feeling I had would not go away. I walked into church and made a cup of coffee, but...something was not right. I walked out of church. And I went to my friends house. That is where I was supposed to be that night. She was at home by herself, so we just sat and talked.

Conversation filled with understanding, laughter, and frustration. Everything. We had both needed a conversation like that. I was able to listen and understand. Frustration was voiced. We laughed a lot. I could not have asked for a night better than that. She is beautiful and such a blessing to my life. I am so excited to be a part of her life and see how God works through her.

Following God's voice. But of course, it works out for the best because it came from Him. If you hear his voice...listen, and obey. It will take you to a place better than you can imagine.

"I will instruct you and teach you in the way that you should go; I will counsel you, and watch over you." Psalm 32:8

With love,
Hannah Louise


Wednesday, September 26, 2012

No Excuses

This morning was a late start in school which meant that school did not start until 10! . I was awake and ready to go. If only school did that everyday, I may actually be excited to go. But that is a whole other conversation.

I love the picture: a coffee shop with the faint sounds of music over the speakers, coffee in my hand, and  sitting across the table with a friend talking about life. Just a sigh of relief comes over me. That was how my morning was.

I love the mornings were you can sit there and talk about anything and everything. It was one of the mornings. Friends like that are the ones that you keep around.

The topic of youth group came up. I was reminded that youth group was on Sunday and I had previously agreed to go. I did pause when I heard what the theme was. No Excuses. I just froze. I am full of excuses for myself. I always talk myself out of things managing to convince myself with what I consider a good reason. "I didn't have my devotions this morning-but I can do it later." Knowing that I really won't. And so on goes my list.
I did have to admit it is a great theme. We had been discussing our recent struggles of faith and life and we both know that it is going to open our eyes and heart at a whole new level.  I am really excited to dig into this idea and see where God takes it!

God also had another thing for me that morning. I was in the middle of taking a sip of my wonderful chai tea freeze when I was told that when I went to this youth group she was expecting me to become a leader figure.  Although I was new, it was no excuse. She also came up with the idea of me being on the leadership team. Her want for this year was for me to step out of my comfort zone in becoming a leader in speaking, praying and other roles. Wait, what?! Yes, I love people, but when it comes to being a leader I freeze. And yes, I had been working on going out of my comfort zone, and yes, I had been working on learning how to be a leader. But not yet. I wasn't ready! Life situations are not based on when I am ready though, it is when God wants. God was ready. The funny part of this all was that I had not talked to my friend about a lot of this. I know for a fact that was Jesus taking over and speaking through her.

I am terrified flat out of my mind. Yet, so excited about what God is going to do.

Who knew that a cup of coffee would lead to God telling me some big things. Somehow I forget God shows up when I am least expecting it. But, I am so glad he did. I am glad that I slept in, had coffee, and dove into life with my friend. I love her a lot.

Psalm 37:5-6
Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him and he will do this: He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun.


With love, 
Hannah Louise

Sunday, September 16, 2012

Check List

I am in full swing of my schedule being back here at school. I feel like my summer happened months ago. As for now my life consists of friends, nannying, homework, college searching, and once in a while, sleep.

I was getting caught up in my routine.

I was forgetting...

God is here. Right here in Grand Rapids. Some how I lose focus of that. All the time.  Lately my faith has become a check list. I couldn't do this, or that, but I could possibly do that. I had this expectation for myself which basically meant being perfect. I am not perfect. Nor will I ever be. So it was a ridiculous expectation. But yet, I was still believing in a way that I was. I had this idea that I was above and better than the people around me. That is wrong. I am a broken sinner. I am no better than anyone. But I was walking around with that attitude that I was. I was not being me. I had this wall up blocking anyone from getting in.

I forgot my purpose. I forgot what my life was supposed to be about. When I accepted Christ I was admitting that I needed him and that I was not perfect on my own. I need Christ. I cannot be anyone with out him. But I was still trying. I was not willing to be broken or admit that I was hurting. I went into the pattern that I had to be strong for everyone around me. I want so badly to be a witness for the people around me-that I was pretending to have it all together. I do not have it all together. I struggle, I have insecurities, and I worry a whole lot.

I was wrestling with a situation in my mind, but all I could think of is where other people were wrong. As I was processing, God really opened my eyes. My mindset was wrong. I was not perfect as I had previously been trying somehow to think. I just did not want to face that fact. But let me tell myself that again. I am NOT perfect. Christ loves me though.

I needed to step back and let God reveal himself. I had lost focus. Lost focus and sight of what was important. What is important is that I am a servant for Christ. I am not on this earth for anything more than to do what Christ wants. I am his. He gives me my worth. My faith is not a check list of what to do or not to do. I do not have to earn God's love. He loves me. I needed to step down from the high seat I was on. I am not above others. It is not my job to put myself up there. I sin along with each and every person. I am not supposed to be perfect. I want to focus on loving Christ. He does not expect me to be perfect. I needed to go back to the basics.

As I start this next week I want it to be different. I want Christ to be my center. I want to be aware of what is going on around me. I want to take the chances Christ gives me. I want to be real. And honest. I do not want to act like I am perfect. I do not have to try to be perfect. In fact, Christ does not want me to be.
No more check list. But me, getting to know my Heavenly Father better and living my life the way he would want me too.

Matthew 6:33
"Seek first His kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you."

With love,
Hannah Louise

Friday, August 10, 2012

Week Six

Saturday:
      My dear friend Molly came to visit me. I was so excited to see her once again! She ran out with a huge smile on her face. Her happiness was contagious. Getting to spend the afternoon with her was just the medicine needed to make me feel completely better. She is full of stories that make me laugh really hard. I learned lots of camp songs as well(: Molly also made me a rose out of duck tape! A hot pink rose!!! I was pretty pumped.

Sunday:
     One year ago, was the Friday that I sat in the prayer tower and gave my life back to Christ. It was crazy looking back on the last year and seeing all that God has done.
     Andrew and my dad were in Grand Rapids so I got to go out to lunch with Caleb, Grace and my mom. Excellent. My siblings never fail to entertain me.
     After teens some staff went to McDonalds...that was just an experience in itself. Now why would high school students and college aged people go to Meijer? DUH. To buy Nerf guns. I did not buy one at the time, but I am planning on going back to get one. I was the photographer for the group. It was intense, and I did not even stay for the actual war. There was a surprise party-well, it was an attempted surprise party for Collin-who is on the music team here at Maranatha, but sadly he found out about it.




Monday:
     Monday was a great day(: I got to spend the day going into Grand Rapids with Kendra to pick up shirts that she had designed (which looked fantastic). We stopped at Taco Bell for lunch because that is just the way we roll. Getting to know her this summer has been so fantastic. We are so different, but we do understand each other on some levels which is such a huge blessing. I have learned a lot from her. God has made her into such a strong and beautiful woman. I am glad we have become friends. She and I went into the mall. We may have spent over 30 minutes trying on headbands...I love shopping with her...
      She is also my dance partner whenever we have dance parties. We sing and dance with each other, and it is great.



Tuesday:
       I had the chance to hear Fay speak in teens! She talked about Owning your Faith. The thing that struck me the most is that God has called me in life to do his plan, but I still have the choice on whether or not I want to accept it.
      I had the chance to grasp the idea a little more of what pursuing is. I knew that I deserve to have my heart pursued by a guy. It was awesome to be able to hear Jon's perspective. I do want to be chased. I am not going to settle for any guy. God has made every girl beautiful in their own way. Our hearts deserved to be sought after and won. I am going to protect my heart and chase God for now. I am pursuing Christ. I want to be single right now. I have been reading Captivating (totally recommend it) and it has really opened my eyes to how much God wants me to love him, and how much he wants to love me.
      After the service at night, friends and I went over to a park across the channel from Maranatha. It was my first time going over there. I got to see the lake from a different side. There was no one else there which was a nice get away. I sat there staring at the lake as the waves crashed on the shore. People were really vulnerable about what they were going through.

Wednesday:
     Gary Chapman is out at Maranatha this week. He is the author of The 5 Love Languages. He came in and talked to the teens. He talked about things that he wish he would have known before he got married. He has written a book about it which I am really excited to dig into! He is a great speaker. Learning your love language is a huge help in relationships of all kinds. If you are interested there are different quizzes to choose from on this webpage.



     I took some senior pictures(: I had the best hair stylist and make artist ever! (Thanks Auty).
     The topic in girl's night at teens was dating. Most of it I had heard before, but there was one thing that I was reminded of. No matter how much I want to pursue a guy-DO NOT. If I do then I will always be looking for confirmation that they really do care for me.
      Fay and I went down to the beach after teens and spent about an hour sitting on the swings chatting.

Thursday:
      Jon spoke in teens about fear. The focus was on Mark 4:35-41 where Jesus calms the storm. We all wrote down our biggest fears. There was a prayer that we prayed to help us with those fears. I learned that simple prayers are ok. I get so caught up in trying t make my prayers "great" that I forget that I am praying to a God that hears me and is listening to me. All He wants is to hear my heart.
     I love Meijer! And Kendra. So getting to hangout with Kendra and go to Meijer was fantastic! But first we went to the bank to drop off checks. The ATMs have gotten really advanced. We were amazed at the way the pictures of the checks flashed across the screen. Yes, I am entertained easily. Meijer also makes me happy! Kendra has gotten me addicted to nail polish!!! AH!
     Cody came to visit! He worked out at Maranatha and was a big influence in my life. I was really excited to see him! I also had the chance to meet Emily who also attends UC with a lot of the staff. I was so excited to have them there all weekend!

Friday:
     Prayer tower once again(: I had the opportunity to pray with some friends which was a really awesome experience and I am thankful that God gave me the chance too! I am learning to just let go and remember that God is the one I am talking too.
     For lunch I went with friends to get pretzels for lunch. I am not a fan of pretzels, but these were fantastic. I also got a pint of Chocolate Milk!
     Sarah and I had the chance to hangout! It was so hot outside so we were just sitting in the air conditioning.
     My family was all gone for the weekend to Ohio! It was just Andrew and I left! hehe! It was exciting not having to check in with anyone. I just got to float around on my own time. So, for dinner I went with Kendra, Fay, Sarah, and Emily to Culvers for dinner. My mom had figured out meals for all of the days, but forgetting Friday night!
     I had the opportunity to share my testimony at teens again. It does get easier the more I share it. Later, I had a chance to talk with a girl whom I love a lot. I have known her quite a few years, but we were able to connect on a whole new level. She is beautiful and God is working in her. I am thankful that I was able to just talk to her for a while.
     BEACH at night. Ah, one of my favorite things. People just hung out, but I was able to have some time alone just sitting with my feet in the water. God just keeps reminding me with how much he has blessed me and it never fails to get me.

 Psalm 37:4
"Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart."            





With Love,
Hannah Louise

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Adopted by God

A year ago I was at Maranatha. I was at the prayer tower with the teen program. We had gone through the stations for the prayer walk. I sat in the prayer tower as communion was taken, as cardboard testimonies were shared, and as voices rang out singing praises.
That morning when I walked though the prayer walk God was only the person I knew about my whole life. Never much more than that.
By the time I left the prayer tower, He was the one who loved me and the one I gave up everything for.
Something changed. Something had been changing in me all summer.
God was trying to catch me. He was pursing me. He wanted me as his own.
Every situation that had happened in my life was all leading up to this.
God just kept talking to me.
He was shutting out the lies that I had heard all my life.
Me running my life trying to make everything go right was not working out so well. I am an in-perfect human. I was born a sinner and always will be. Yet, I have this God who loves me beyond all. He sent his son to die for me. All my sins are washed away.
Praying that prayer gave me the feeling being clean. It as if I could feel the past just being washed away.
For the first time in my life, I felt complete and utter Peace. I was filled with joy. Joy comes from Christ. Happiness is just a temporary feeling that is on earth. No more constantly wondering when I would be happy again. God was in control. It took so much weight of my shoulders.
I was so happy. I felt like a little girl who just wanted to twirl under the sun all day. I did not have a care in the world. All I knew was Jesus loved me.
I was that NEW CREATION!
My life verse that still holds the promise for me. I have it posted in multiple places that I see every day.

2 Corinthians 5:17
       Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has GONE, the new has COME.

God is not finished with me. He is just getting started. I am being healed more and more every single day.
I would not trade this past year for anything. God has taught me so much. I wish that I could sit here and explain everything, but there is so much. I just know that I am never going to be finished rediscovering how much God loves me.
Time after time I mess up, but God is there to catch me.
As I look back on this past year-I see God everywhere. I love that. All I want is for Christ to shine through every part of my life. He is my first love. He is the only thing I want and need. The song Everything by Life House just captures this.
                               
                               Jesus came and found me.
                                              I am His.
                      I am a daughter of the King of Kings.
           I have been adopted into the best family in the world.
      Best of all. I am always going to be loved. Just the way I am.

Lamentations 3:22-24
The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. “The Lord is my portion,” says my soul, “therefore I will hope in him.”

With Love,
Hannah Louise

Saturday, July 28, 2012

Week Five

Saturday:
     Kendra, Fay, Susan, Sarah and I all went to the Whippi Dip for lunch. My lunch consisted of french fries and an Oreo Cheese Cake flurry. Fantastic! There is a huge play ground set there, so we climbed up and ate there. We shared a lot of laughs and great conversation! On the way down we all went down the slides. Yes, I was hanging out with college girls! YAY!
     Once we got back Fay and I went and had a quiet time on the deck of my cottage. Man, it was hot out!
     Lex Ann, Mallory, and I went to the mall! These girls are so awesome! We went crazy in the stores. I watched them try on some of the most interesting outfits that I had ever seen! I found dresses for my senior pictures! Mallory and I ended up buying matching dresses! Lex Ann and I had never hung out, so I loved it! She is crazy and so much fun! We tried on matching dresses and goofed off in the dressing rooms. All of us got locked out of our dressing rooms numerous times. I am sure, driving the workers there crazy. It happened so often we started just sliding under our doors! I learned quite a lot from Lex Ann that afternoon! She is very wise. Even though she is the most entertaining shopper that I had ever met!


     My parents and brothers were gone for the day in Detroit for the Tigers game! My sister hung out with friends all day, but I was responsible for getting her dinner. We went out for dinner. I had not driven in over a month so that was a funny feeling being in control of a car again! It was great bonding time with my sister.
     Some of the staff had a bonfire again that night. We sat around talking. I am so thankful for the staff this summer! God brought them all here for a reason this summer! God was really evident that night. I was able to face a fear of mine. Only by God though. God is really just bringing me more and more friends whom are all teaching me things. I am really blessed with the lessons. It may be hard at the time, but I have learned some of the most important lessons of my life this summer! 

Sunday:
     My mother and I spent the day shopping! I had a lot of fun with her. She even ended up liking my "teen stores" so much that she bought the same dress as me (in a different color of course).
     Susan and I had a movie time again finishing the wedding planner. Of course we had our ice cream.

Monday:
     Fay, Sarah and Anna came over for lunch. It was a lot of fun hanging out with them!
     My afternoon was spent napping at Anna's house with her. I told her to wake me up at 3, but I guess I did not feel like getting up then. The sleep felt so good! I missed going to the teen slip 'n slide, but I did end up going in the lake which felt amazing! The waves were some of the biggest I had seen all summer!
      I realized something that night...or day. I trust Fay 100%. I do not trust people fast, and even having her as my mentor I still doubted most of what she said. That has changed. I now go to her because I know that she will remind me of the truth. Being able to trust is one of the best feelings in the world. I love my sister <3

      Susan and I went down on the beach to hangout at night. I say this all the time, but the beach is really my favorite place in the world. I may have been to exotic beaches, but Maranatha beach with Lake Michigan is my favorite. Nothing beats having the waves hit the shore. I just see God there! We ended up telling each other our testimonies which was a really awesome experience to share! 
    
Tuesday:
     Missionary speaker spoke in teens. He works with bringing Muslims to Christ. Just really reaching out to them. It was awesome to see how God makes every person with a purpose to do his will! No matter what a person does it is all a part of creating God's kingdom.
     Date night with Fay! We worked out for a while, then sat outside and talked. Since beauty is such a big part of the world today it is great! The world and Christ have such a different view. Fay wrote all about it in her blog. I would suggest taking the time to read her blog!

Wednesday:
     My afternoon was spent babysitting at the Renkema's. This family is one that I love like my own. I have been babysitting them since I was ten years old. Six children all separately holding a place in my heart! I stay with the youngest two while they nap so the mom can take the oldest four to the beach and have an afternoon in the sun! It is relaxing for me. It allows me to have a time set aside just for Hannah time which is needed. I had the chance to talk to Bekah who used to work out at Maranatha! It was great to be able to have a little time to catch up with her. It is so fun to look back and see how much we have grown up in these last few years! I do miss her out here! I also had the chance to talk to Rachel Breuker! Man, I miss my best friends! That is the only thing that I would change about summer, is having my best friends out here.

      Bible study was all about 2 Kings 4:1-7. I really enjoyed it. I was amazed at how the woman just trusted and went to get the jars. She didn't ask questions. I know I would have been asking a mountain load of questions. Getting jars has nothing to do with helping the lady get her sons out of slavery! But of course God used it for good(: Enough oil!
Rain was pouring down that night. I was reminded of how great the power of the Lord is. He is the one who creates the storms. I am a fan of the rain, but storms on the beach are my favorite type. There is something so powerful when a storm is over the lake. The lightning, rain, and thunder just make me stop and remember the God that I am fully in love with did all of that!

Thursday:
     I slept in which was so needed! I went to teens late. They were watching How Great is Our God. I have seen that video numerous times, but it never fails to teach me something new. I am so small. I walk around this earth like it is all about me. It is so not. Yet, even though I am so small, God still knows me and loves me. He takes the time to know everything about me!
     I had been asked to share my testimony in the teen program that night. I met with Fay to go over what I would be saying. I was really nervous. Speaking in front of a group of people is not on my list of favorites. I knew that God has been preparing me for this. I was not going to let fear stop me from sharing what God had done in my life. God wrote my story. He is the one that has made me into the girl I am today. Telling Fay was pretty simple because I am so comfortable around her. I needed to practice on someone that I did not know that well. Ryan, one of the teen leaders sat and listened to me. It went pretty well. I felt that peace come over me. I was ready. God was in control of this. Not me. That night I went down in to the teen room. Fay prayed and I started talking. It went so well. All my fear disappeared once I started talking. God is so good! I am willing to share when ever God asks me again!
     That night I could not shake the feeling that was someone that I needed to be talking too. I had never felt this before, so I knew it was real. I ended up talking to my friend Presley. That was the one(: I miss her so very much, and being her friend is such a huge gift. Thanks God for giving me that! I miss you girl. I am always here for you. Do not ever doubt that!

Friday:
     This day was not what I had planned. I had planned on going on the prayer walk and going to GR with Kendra. That was not what happened. I woke up around 3 in the morning. Shoot, I was sick:/ Being sick is not something that I like. I am rarely sick in the summer, and that was even worse. I was stuck in the house all day. My mom did bring me a slushie which made me really happy! Finally I was feeling better, so my mom let me out of the house!!! Being out of the house had never made me so happy! I missed people a little to much!!!

Overall:
     Being honest and open is what is important. Doing what is hardest is worth it.                                         
     I am Beautiful. No matter what the world tells me. That truth has been pounded in to me. I stopped wearing makeup. My life is so much easier. I just get up and go. But, more than just cutting time I have also learned that makeup is just a cover up. God made me the way I am. I have every single right to be confident in who that is.
     Community and love is not measured by distance. Yes, some of my favorite people in the world may not live by me, but they still love me.
      I was able to let go of a part of my past, which was such a freeing experience! Only by God is all of this possible!
     I learned that anger is not always a bad thing. It is how the emotion is handled.

John 16:33
             I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.”

With love,
Hannah Louise


 

Friday, July 27, 2012

Week Four

Saturday:
     SHELBYE AND HANNAH WERE VISITING! Ah, I was excited. They are two of the teen leaders who worked here last summer. They came back to visit for one weekend. I spent the afternoon with all of the staff at the beach. It brought back so many memories!
After work at night we all got ice cream and headed down to the beach for the sunset. We ended up staying down there after the sunset. Hannah had brought her guitar so that we could worship. Being surrounded by people whom all share the same love for our Lord was amazing. We were able to have a time of laughing and goofing off, but also a time of praising God. Sitting in a circle with the beach as our backdrop, we all just let go. As soon as a song was finishing I heard the waves crashing on the shore, and I felt the wind blow through my hair. The Holy Spirit was so evident that night! God spoke that night. He spoke to me and I was reminded of his great power. There is so much in this world that I fear. It is not worth it. God is all powerful. He will take care of everything. I was also reminded of the fact that
                                               God loves me just the way I am.

Sunday:
     I had the opportunity to work in the upper-el room this week. This is the group of 4th-6th graders. I think I fell in love with it! The kids are crazy, but seeing them worship the Lord at such a young age is priceless.
     Hannah, Shelbye, and the rest of the people from UC left that afternoon. It was hard letting that happen. I missed having them around. But I am so blessed by the short weekend that I was able to share with them.

Monday:
     I spent the day on the beach with Susan, Kendra, Sarah, Josh and Jon! Everyone but Susan and I left. So she and I went on a walk down the beach. I am not sure how far we walked, but it was beautiful out. The sun was out, but the heat was not overwhelming.
     Fay and I had a date today(: We painted our nails. Which means glitter!
     I had one of the best quiet times as well. I spent an hour and a half reading Matthew 6, 7, the book of James, and a chapter of Captivating. It never fails to amaze me that though the Bible was written so long ago, it still is relevant today. I still learn from it.

Tuesday:
     I had the morning off from work which meant that I could go to teens! The speaker that morning was the missionary from RBC. We were all handed note cards and told to start folding them. It could be in anyway. The point was to show us that God bends every person in a different way with a different purpose. That stands for the talents that he gives us.
     I was surprised by Austin Stech today! He is a friend that goes to Grandville high school. I never see him, but he and his youth group showed up at Maranatha which was a great surprise!
     I spent the afternoon at the pool. As I was walking back to my cottage, I was thinking about how Andrea Luurtsema had texted me that morning and how I had not texted her back. I saw a girl a little way down the beach that reminded me of her. But wait...I froze. I took off my sunglasses. I could have sworn that I was seeing things. Suddenly I had a girl running at me full force. ANDREA! It really was her. That was the best hug ever! One of the best surprises ever when I was thinking I had to wait a whole year to see her again!
     Susan and I had been friends for two weeks! We went on a celebration date. At first we had no idea what to do. We went on a nice walk just talking. Afterwards we went back to Lebanon and made a frozen pizza! Wow, my friends are great cooks :p

Wednesday:
     Pizza buffet for lunch with Susan! I do like me some pizza. Spending time with Susan is not so bad either. Afterwards I went to Meijer with Susan and Collin. Now I am not sure why, but I love going to Meijer in the summer. It is one of my favorite places ever. Going with them, was a whole new adventure in itself. I do not think that I have ever laughed so much at Meijer!
     Kendra, who is one of the teen leaders this summer, and I got to hangout! We started out at the beach, but the flies were biting like crazy so we headed up to the prayer tower. On Maranatha that is one of my favorite places to be. We sat there just talking. She is a beautiful woman on the inside and out! Having the chance to get to know her has been great! We dove right into great conversation. We connected on lots of levels!
     Wednesday night was spent at staff Bible study where we focused on Luke 4 learning how to go through a chapter in the Bible!

Thursday:
     Batman came out....whelp. That means nothing to me. I have never seen any of those movies. So going to the midnight premiere had zero interest to me. Susan did not end up going either. We made ice cream floats and shakes. We were both a little slap happy...and I had never seen Susan like that. I was doing all I could not to lose it. Our night was spent watching the Wedding Planner! Ah, chick flicks! Never fail to get me!

Friday:
      Prayer tower in the morning. My favorite day of the week. I skipped going through the stations with the teens. I just went to the prayer tower to have some quiet time before everyone came up. God really does listen to me! Fay and I had a great talk. She gets me.That is one of the best feelings in the world when someone gets you and fully understands.
     I got a headache in the afternoon and ended up crashing before work that night. Since I was working in a different department that week, it meant that I would be at the Friday night program. Every Friday the children go up front and sing for the parents. When I was younger I hated singing up front. I would stand up there glaring, refusing to sing. Yet, I was back up there. I enjoyed it this time, even smiling. Thankfully my parents did not hold true to their threats of taking pictures. There was a bonfire after singing for the children. For every child that says their memory verses, they got to chose a counselor of their choice to pie. When I was yunger I always said my verses...now I was on the otherside. Caleb, my brother learned all of his memory verses...
of course, who did he chose to pie? ME. Oh joy.
      Once I was showered I went to meet Fay for another date! I am learning so much from her and I hold every moment that we have together as a treasure!
     The staff went out and bought energy drinks...me being super smart drank some of one at 11 at night. They had never affected me before. Of course it did that night! I was so tired, but so full of energy. I could not sleep at all that night. That is never happening again!
 Overall:
     I am becoming more aware of the community that God is forming around me. I am making friendships that I never could have imagined. God just never fails to provide me with friends that I need! From the new friends that I am getting to know, to the old friendships that are continuing to grow-so blessed.
      I faced fears this week. God took those away. I am being reminded that God's plan is always the best. God has everything under control. I fear because God's plan may not be my plan. So crazy. God's plan is always better.
     Working in upper-el was like God was speaking to me confirming that I was supposed to pursue teaching. I loved it oh, so much. Working with children makes me so happy!

Luke 4:1-13
     Jesus, full of the Holy Spirit, left the Jordan and was led by the Spirit into the wilderness,  where for forty days he was tempted by the devil. He ate nothing during those days, and at the end of them he was hungry. 
      The devil said to him, “If you are the Son of God, tell this stone to become bread.”
  Jesus answered, “It is written: ‘Man shall not live on bread alone.' The devil led him up to a high place and showed him in an instant all the kingdoms of the world.   And he said to him, “I will give you all their authority and splendor; it has been given to me, and I can give it to anyone I want to. 7 If you worship me, it will all be yours.” Jesus answered, “It is written:
‘Worship the Lord your God and serve him only. 
 The devil led him to Jerusalem and had him stand on the highest point of the temple. “If you are the Son of God,” he said, “throw yourself down from here. 
For it is written:
“‘He will command his angels concerning you
to guard you carefully; they will lift you up in their hands,
so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
  Jesus answered, “It is said: ‘Do not put the Lord your God to the test.When the devil had finished all this tempting, he left him until an opportune time.

With love,
Hannah Louise